Idealism Crushed

I understand intellectually that there is little fairness in the world. However, it appears that I have been clinging to the pale hope that at least within the ivory halls of academia some remnant of a meritocracy remained. Today that hope was  crushed beyond all recognition.  Logic, merit, fairness were all swept aside so that I could be reminded that power stems not from what one knows but who.

This may help me to answer the elusive question of "Where do I see myself in 5 years?"

Posted in Personal Development
6 comments on “Idealism Crushed
  1. Kyra says:

    What happened????

  2. Cathy says:

    Hi Kyra
    Just some work stuff. Can’t really blog more and keep it anonymous. The universe decided that I needed to be reminded that “who you know” trumps just about everything else. I was not the one who knew the right people in this situation.

  3. einalem says:

    Blurgh. I hate when that happens. Funny, I had an interesting conversation with a friend at the weekend about our very different outlooks on life. She’s a realist/pessimist and is therefore surprised when good things happen. I’m an idealist/optimist and am disappointed when things go wrong. We came to the conclusion that the world needs both type of people in it. Without the idealists there’d be no-one to push current boundaries.
    Hang on in there.

  4. Cathy says:

    Thanks Mel
    I guess I’m a realistic idealist. I used to be a pessimist but have learned that having a bad expectation can infact create bad outcomes (sort of a Steve Pavlina expectation creating reality thing). I’ve been striving to be more hopeful/optimistic. The realist in me knew that the situation would likely turn out as it did. The idealist in me hoped for a more fair outcome. I didn’t quite realize how much I’d been hoping for the ideal outcome until I didn’t get it. alas.

  5. Kyra says:

    I’m so sorry that happened. I hate that, it makes me angry and gives me that powerless sensation where I have the urge to punch something.
    Tell ya what, if DH’s company ever gets their act together and gets him to colo. springs before NC gets him, I’ll take you out to lunch – my treat, since I’ll be in the area frequently. 🙂
    Remember, that ultimately, you really are still in control of your life. I don’t know what happened, but I do believe that everything happens for a reason – that a better opportunity is coming along. Maybe it’s already before you, and you just haven’t realized it yet? Or maybe there is a better way to make whatever should have happened, happen?
    either way *HUGS!* Wanna come do Yoga with me? I may need someone to save me.

  6. Cathy says:

    Thanks Kyra. Hope you and hubby do get out here to CO. It would be terrific to have a fun friend in town! Ha, this experience was part of a great opportunity I am exploring. I just needed to be reminded that power is relative & mine is small.