Personal development can be S-L-O-W. At least mine. In 2008, my friend Clay (he changes online personas constantly but this may work) sent me this exercise.
The refrain in my mind is ‘I wonder what holds her back?’
In your journal draw 3 concentric circles.
In the inner most circle write the question ‘who am i?’
Next circle write the question ‘who do i fear i am?’
In the outer most circle write the question ‘who do i pretend to be?’
See what comes up.
Eight years later and I’m still working on this exercise. I just turned 48. I fear I am boring, ordinary, obsolete, and p.s. the collagen in my skin isn’t quite so elastic as it used to be.
I pinged Clay about this recently, and noted my life had no “chaos”.
Is there something between absolute chaos and obsolescence?
There are times that I am frustrated that life doesn’t have the “restart” button that most online games do. Sometimes I wish there were a “do over” button, but I appreciate Collins’ candor in Good to Great re: starting and assessing where you are. He even has a worksheet.
What holds you back? Who do you fear you are?